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Okay, so first the change: I made the letters private.  I don’t feel like they really contribute to what I want my blog to be about.. and now that I (sort of) have my husband back I’m feeling a little more independent and less mushy 🙂

Second, Yes, I am well aware I haven’t posted about the actual graduation, or the trip home, or anything since Charlie has made it safely to AIT at Fort Leonard Wood, MO.  Basically, other than the 2 posts I squeaked out, I’ve been exhausted this week!  Adjusting back to being home, dealing with a lot of crazy emotions, dealing with getting used to the Army changing things up as soon as I get used to them.  Monday I got a call from Charlie announcing we had by Thursday to decide whether I would be picking him up from AIT or having the government transport him to his FDS.  The obvious answer was ME, but he had heard a few tips from his 1st Sergeant or whatever that were confusing and made him think it was better to do otherwise.. I pretty much had an anxiety attack at work, cussed out Charlie through text after he fell asleep (I was working late and he was tired-it was bound to happy), then came home and wrote up a confusing post on FIC.  Thank the flying spaghetti monster for FIC!  They were able to answer my questions, sort out the misinformation Charlie had received (or heard wrong) and def. calm me down so I could make a very educated decision and response.  So things worked out okay :o)

Of course, Thursday morning C’s unit had all their cell phones taken away.  Not sure why still, other than they need to earn the privilege I guess.  So, after finally adjusting to being away from him again, and getting to text/talk a few times a day, that was kind of a punch in the face.

I had made a group on Facebook shortly before that though, and thankfully with the support of my Army wives I held my head up, didn’t bawl my eyes out, and made it though the whole, long, 36 hours (haa yes I know) until I could speak to him again.  Just like clockwork, I got a call today around 1730 central time.  So 2 hours of talk was nice!  And he had plenty to tell me about driving simulators, the test, the fact that like 12 people got rolled or kicked out of his unit ALREADY (of 109 orig.) and just basic day to day life of an 88M trainee.

He got to put in his wish-list for duty stations:
Conus: Drum, NY; Lewis, Washington State; and California (not sure the base name)
OConus: Richardson, Alaska; Germany, and Japan

 

Exciting!

Then, tonight though, he found out he should know by Friday next week his projected duty station, so whether or not they have time to consider wish lists when they pick that quickly is unknown to him.  No matter what, I”ll be excited!

A friend suggested doing a bucket list for wherever you get stationed.  I love this idea!  Find out all the cool things unique to the area and make sure you do all of them in the time you’re there.

 

Now it’s super late and I should be going to bed.  I’m sick and miserable.

I think I just hated bedtime so much as a child that now that I’m an adult I’m all like, FFF UUUU BEDTIME!

I”ll stay up till my eyes bleed!

You’d think at 26 I’d have grown up a little more.

/sigh

 

Yeah buddy

Happy Easter everyone.

Honestly, holidays away from your so blow.  It could be worse, granted.  But still.  Especially since we have little kids… I really don’t get into the whole holiday spirit like Char does.. He is normally the one who hides the eggs, sets up the tree, etc.  I managed.. there are 56 eggs in plain sight around the house and the dog didn’t eat any (yet).  The Easter baskets are cute, also.. even cameo eggs!  Nora will enjoy it 🙂  I bought waaaay too much candy though, I think they will be on a sugar high for a week.

So, if I can just make it through Sunday and Monday I’ll be on my way to Georgia and that much closer to seeing my love.  It seems so soon and so far away, lol!

My mother had to drive to my house tonight to kill a HUGE cockroach.  I’m so glad she is awesome 🙂  And she didn’t question me at all when I called.  Yes, I’m pitiful and a baby.  But of all creepy crawly’s, roaches are the only thing I can’t deal with.  I think it has something to do with stepping on some huge bug when I was little and yellow goo squishing EVERYWHERE.

Just having a mellow depressing night listening to old Modest Mouse and Lumineers on YouTube.. see you in the A.M. ❤

Oh, I took a photo-reel for C.  Starting out with my dress I’ll be wearing to family day.. and ending up with, well, lol.  Eventually I’ll send him a pic or two at a time.  It did help jump-start my mood again!

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Last letter sent from BCT ❤

88M

Sundays are pretty sweet.

907405_2975672887297_882352742_n(while hoping/waiting for a phone call.. I suddenly got a picture message!)

After waiting ALL day.. I finally got a picture message around 7pm. SURPRISE!  Followed by a 1 hour call. ❤  So, even though my friends got calls earlier in the day, I got a much longer one 🙂  And should get another quick call (and another picture) after he finishes talking to his father.  SO EFFIN EXCITED LOVEEEE FHEII.

9 days left till Family Day.  While I know this will not be the longest we are apart, or necessarily the longest periods of time we go without communication  It has been something getting used to it.  Do I regret it?  Not really.  I’ve grown into a much stronger, independent woman without needing to be single to do so.  I can stick up for myself much better now and take a lot less shit.  I know what it means to be apart from someone you love, and I know what we have is something special.  I also will be given a lot of opportunities to be *ME* while Charlie is playing G.I Joe.  I can be Candice the painter, Candice the Gamer, Candice the sleeper… lol.  Whatever I feel like doing, whoever I feel like being is OKAY.  And that is a pretty cool freedom to have.

Getting to tell Charlie tonight on the phone that Tuition Assistance was reinstated was pretty exciting.. he loudly announced it to his whole platoon, and everyone suddenly freaked out.  Everyone had been pretty upset about it, so it was cool he got to share the good news.  Even cooler because I’m an awesome nerdy wife who keeps up with things.  A friend-of a friend who served 4 years in the ARMY was telling me things to expect today.. and I mostly wanted to punch him.  First of all, since he was the soldier, not the wife, a lot of what he said didn’t apply to me.  Secondly, I have my resources and have done a lot of research thus far and know basically what to expect and where to find more information once needed (though there are never any for-sures or knowing what you’re getting into).  That conversation happened while I was picking up dog crap.. so that might explain my edginess.

I have a lot of things to accomplish this week before our little trip to Georgia.

Lots of love to my bloggy community!

Stay classy, San Diego.

PS:

Got another 30 minutes before lights out, so that made me night!  3rd platoon has three streamers so far and had one soldier get honor soldier of the cycle (?).  Each one of the guys in his platoon chipped in 10$ to buy the guy a tablet of his choice.  Pretty cool!

His AFPT3 score was 248!  246 was his platoon average, and 240 is Bravo’s average.  Which is actually leading all the other companies!  Woooot!

He did the 2MR in 15 flat, 52 Push Ups, and 75 Sit Ups.  So proud of you bay!

Okay, time to get the kids to bed and start getting all the things on my “list” done for the week.

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Today counts 75 days until I can hug my husband again.

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